Like a book elegantly bound, in a language you can't read

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective, when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart

You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily

You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart

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Death Cab for Cutie "I will Possess your heart"
I adore that song.
Alot.

Apart from listening to Death Cab, things lately have been same old, same old. Nothing too exciting or unusual.
I updated my DeviantArt page - www.esiuol-89.deviantart.com - with some art and a new journal entry, after having not been online on DA for monthssss. I felt so guilty being away from it for so long.

I'M IN A REALLY CREATIVE MOOD. I NEED TO DRAW OR PAINT SO BAD RIGHT NOW.
I will, as soon as I'm done with this blog.
I want to draw more wolves. And trees. And swirls.

I've been drawing alot of tattoo designs lately, swirls mostly, for myself. Just deciding where I want the tattoo to go.. inside of my left ankle most likely. We'll see. I'm too indecisive to make any concrete decisions about ANYTHING in life, even simple things like what to put on my toast at breakfast, let alone a decision about something that will be permanently engraved on my ankle.
Yes. Engraved. Lol.

In other news my fish Marley has been really really ill lately, to the point where I thought I'd come to home to find him dead. I thought I had on a few occasions, then he'd move and swim a bit. He's been sick from a combination of things - the colder weather, possible constipation from too much food and also from the fact that I change all his water every ten days. I've made him sick from loving him too much.
He's got swim bladder issues (the swim bladder is what keeps a fish upright in the water) and he hasn't eated in like.. a week. I got some antibiotics for him from work and he seems to be improving, he doesn't swim upside down or do death spirals head first into his gravel anymore, which is good.
I love my fish, ok. I bought him antibiotics coz I didn't want to just give up on him and flush him down the loo. I'm compassionate. Shut up.

Apart from my fish's issues, everything else is as normal. Well, as normal as my life gets anyway.
I'd like it to stay how it is, my life, just, managable, not exceptionally good, but it has its good bits. I'm learning to deal with all the shitty bits. They're not gonna go away anytime soon, so I'm learning to deal with it.

Random bits of information about my life at the moment are as follows:
Work is shit. I'm over it. But I don't want to quit coz I like the staff. Well, most of them. I worked for 9 hours today. Being happy and polite and overly cheerful and useful and helpful towards customers for 9 hours is insanely draining. We were fully booked all day. Sigh.

Uni is over for the semester in like.. 2 weeks. So that's good. Just gotta do like 10 assignments before then. Eeek. I havn't started any of them. Oops. I'm excited about my 2D media assignment though, OMGLINOBLOCKPRINTINGYAYYAYYAY. <3

KISSCHASY ARE COMING TO TOWN IN 5 DAYS. I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED. I'M GOING TO BOTH BRISBANE SHOWS AND I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MONTHS AND NOW IT'S ALMOST HERE. HECK YES.

I washed my car yesterday, it was rather filthy coz it's always parked outside. Poor Nissy the Nissan. Lolll.

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MONTHS BUT I'VE FINALLY GOT MY VERY OWN COPY OF "BLANKETS" BY CRAIGH THOMPSON. It came all the way from America. I read the book last year on recommendation from a friend at school and adored it, so I've finally got my own copy to love and have forever. I love Craig's illustraions. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
I also got a book version of the Turner to Monet art exhibition that's currently in the Canberra Art Gallery. AMAZING.

AND ZOMFG I bought myself a THREE DISC MOLLY RINGWALD EXTRAVAGANZA PACK WHICH CONSISTS OF THE BREAKFAST CLUB, PRETTY IN PINK AND SIXTEEN CANDLES. I love Molly Ringwald. I love those three movies. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Umm yeah. That's all for now.
Hope you enjoyed all the random photos in this blog. since I havn't written one in a while I had a bit of a stockpile of photos I wanted to put in. And the song lyrics too. This is why I need to blog more often, so I don't do these enormous blogs filled with loads of text and pictures and lyrics. Oh well.

Explanation of pictures in this blog...
- The Pretty in Pink picture is coz I bought the movie recently, dah.
- The sheep are from a random forward email my mum sent me coz she knows I like arty stuffs. They're made out of old phones and phone cords. Pretty rad I thought.
- The picture of the books and dvd is the stuff I've gotten recently. Pretty self explanatory.
- There's a photo of one of the corners of my room in there too. Just coz.
- The very first picture is of me and http://thelifeofmeree.blogspot.com/ enjoying our Midori. Yesss. I like it coz it's blurry.
- The one right below this is the view from http://thelifeofmeree.blogspot.com/'s deck in her old house. She lives in the city now, I'm so proud of her and happy for her <3

END OF BLOG.

BYEEEE <3

Bland as white bread

I am bland. I really do feel quite bland.
My life today is bland.
Bland bland bland.
Work is bland.
Uni... is somewhat bland, but ok overall.
Ok well my life isn't really all that bland.
I lied.
It's actually been ok lately, and quite awesome in parts, but I feel bad for not blogging in ages and I can't really think of anything particularly interesting to write.. So I'll just ramble. HOW UNUSAL FOR ME!

So.. I've suddenly realised I've only got 3 weeks of semester one of uni left. Amazing.
I've got so much work to do as well, and, as always, I have very little inspiration or enthusiasm to do so.
Feels like I've only just started uni, but really, I've been at uni for 10 weeks and it's May.
Seems the older I get the quicker time goes by.
I can't decide if I like that idea or not.
Not really I guess.

Whatever.
Moving on before I start to over-analyse everything all over again.

You know what I love?
Spending time doing nothing but sitting around and talking with my mates.
You know what I love even more ?
Doing that in a park. On a picnic rug. With 4 of my most favourite people ever.
That's what I did all day monday.
It was the best pisnic I've ever been on, purely for the fact that it was with some of the raddest people I know and coz the weather was beautiful, we had loads of food and good times were had by all.
It was wonderful.
There was alot of eating and talking and photo taking and running and kicking the ball around and also alot of crash tackling and hugging and attacking in general.
Good times.
I did get kinda hurt though. My wrist/hand is killing me. I can hardly drive. This's what happens when you run around being silly. Lol.
The bone in my butt hurts too. From being crash tackled to the ground and landing on the same bone in my butt twice. Lolll.
Nevermind.

There's a few select people in my life who I could happily spend every hour of everyday with and never get sick of. I'm really greatful for them and I hope they know who they are. There's like.. ten or so of these people. I think.

And you know what else I love?
Music.
And buying new music.
I bought myself the new Presets, The Getaway Plan and also Cut Copy albums on sunday. Aaaah they're all so great. I want to listen to them all at once, all the time.
But I can't.

In other news: Work was quite the terrible experience today. It hasn't been too bad lately but today was shit. Under staffed, over worked and underpaid is what I feel about my job right now.
I got bitten by a bitchy little west highland terrier today. Right in the joint of my thumb. I can't really move my thumb much now. It hurts.
Stupid terrier.

I'm excited coz there's a few exciting things coming up in my life over the next few months - lots and lots of live gigs (including KISSCHASY, REPEAT OFFENDER, KIMYA DAWSON, PANIC AT THE DISCO AND ALSO AVALON DRIVE... JUST TO NAME A FEW), some 18th birthday parties, and, best of all - UNI HOLIDAYYYYYS!
I have no uni classes from the 2nd june through to the 21st of july. I'm excited and wanna go away somewhere or do something special but I don't know what.

I'm so over uni. It's harder than school because there's no real help or guidance from the tutors.
I just really really really hope I pass everything.
It's all I want, to pass, so I don't have to do any of mu subjects again.
That would suck so bad.
I'm considering changing my major from communication design to digital media, but I'm still not really sure.
I'm not sure of anything these days.

All the photos in this blog are from my picnic. It truly was a wonderful day.



I've had enough blogging for now I think.
I could ramble on for about another 1500 words, but I won't.
I'm gonna go to bed instead.

Bai!