Absent

I don't feel like writing a TiLT list this week.
Too tedious and annoying and just... gah.
Too much else going on.

Drowning.

Parasites

Hello readers!

Thought of the day:
This is no new information, but, I do not want children.
Do. Not. Want.
Just thought I'd officially announce that to the world after saying it to friends and co-workers for as long as I can remember on multiple occasions.
I do not get along with children, I never have and I'm fairly certain I never will. Give me 20 cats instead anyday. I'm not even kidding. I'd rather have a pet shark or grizzly bear than a child.

I can't ever remember being attracted to the idea of children. I never played with dolls or played families or babies or whatever when I was a kid. I played with toy lions and horses and dogs, and occaisonally trucks in the dirt with the boys.
And furthermore, I just don't get kids. I don't even like holding other people's babies, and the only reason I do baby sitting is cos it's extra money on the side and it's only ever like once every second month for like 4 hours.

I was talking about kids, marriage, boyfriends, grand master love life plans and whatnot with Rachel just before.
My response to children: Yeah, no. I dont want anything to grow inside of me like some sort of parasite for nine months, and then come out from being inside of me and have it drink from my boobs.
Made Rachel laugh. Haha.
The thing is though, IT'S SO TRUE. I say things like that alot. I've never liked or wanted children, ever. I just don't like children, and I don't like the idea of something LIVING inside of me for nine months. I also refuse to believe the "Oh but MY children will be different" idea. All children have snotty noses and cry, just because their yours doesn't make them angels.

Plus, the whole having a child as your own responsibility for the entire time it's a child, and then after you don't need to look after it quite so much, it'll still live with you in your house until it's 18 or 20 or so years old idea is not that appealing. I know what it's like to be an annoying teenager, why would I want to give birth to something and put myself through the agony of being on the receiving end of all that teen angst?! Plus like, if I end up doing photography as a career, I'm going to want and need to travel. Not so good if you need to be changing nappies and worrying about feeding times.

Then there's my other thought - there's already billions of people in the world, why do I deserve to populate the earth further? What does that acheive?!
I'd rather adopt a bunch of homeless animals on death row at the RSPCA. I'd rather save their lives than create a new life in the form of a baby living inside me.
And if I ever do end up wanting kids because I'm deluded somehow, I'll adopt. For the reason I stated above. Why do I deserve to populate this earth when there are millions of children already out there which don't have clean drinking water or loving parents?

Tell ya what, it'd have to be someone extremely special to convince me to want to give birth.
Yeaaaah, just no.
No no no.

But hey, this is just MY opinion. If you want kids, then that's awesome, you can go do that and I'll come to your baby shower and be supportive and everything, but you won't catch me having a baby of my own.
This is just me having a little rant about how I don't like or want kids. You can buy a puppy and get sick of it after 6 months because you've not bothered to train it and now it's eating everything you own because it's bored, and I'll adopt it from you. That would make me feel worthwhile, adopting that neglected puppy of yours and giving it the attention it deserves, but I'm not having children.

Hope you all enjoyed that.
I have opinions.
See, this blog is moderately interesting, sometimes.
Good night world.

Cat Nap

I went to a friend of a friend's house on friday night.
Made friends with his neighbour's cat.
She fell asleep on my feet.
Animals are drawn to me, somehow. I have a "animals come to me, I will love you" vibe I think.
I could have easily scooped her up and taken her home with me.
Man I want a cat of my own SO bad, but my dogs would probably not get along with a cat at all.
As soon as I move out/don't have dogs that don't like cats, I'm getting a cat. I so desperately want to adopt one or two from the RSPCA. The sheer number of cats they pick up off the streets or have dumped at the shelters is huge, I wanna save a few of them.
That's all I wanted to say.
xx

It makes no sense, but I'm desperate to connect

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Try not to repeat a song title. It's harder than you think.

Artist : Gotye
Are you male or female: Wonder why you want her
Describe yourself: Out of my mind
How do you feel about yourself: Heart’s a mess
Describe your current boy/girl situation: True to you
Describe where you currently live: Here in this place
If you could go anywhere you wanted to go: Noir excursion
Your favourite form of transportation: Seven hours with a backseat driver
Your best friend(s) is(are): The only thing I know
Your favourite colour is: Worn out blues
Favourite time of day: Night drive
If your life were a TV show, what would it be called: A distinctive sound
What is life to you: Board with this game
What is the best advice you have to give: Learnalilgivinanlovin
If you could change your name, what would it be: Baby
Thought for the Day: What do you want?
How I would like to die: Like drawing blood
My soul's present condition: Puzzle with a piece missing

I found that kinda fun. I did this process a few times - Made two Kisschasy ones, and also ones using Phoenix and Repeat Offender, but I liked my Gotye one best... came up with some clever answers I think. Gotye is so wonderful.
This is basically just me avoiding doing anything in my real life - eg. study, doing assignments or designing my new TSB.
Internetland is fun to live in, and provides a good means of distraction from real life.
After this I might start writing my tech reports for uni... blarggg. I haven't done anything uni related since friday... But seriously, as if me writing about how I did a photoshoot in a scientific way is going to teach me anything.
Gah.

Hope you've all had a nice weekend, I have.
Louise

TiLT - 27 + Other random ramblings

Happy Thursday Blog Readers!

Hope you've all had a fab week, mine's been pretty good overall.

The things I'm loving this thursday are rather limited, this week hasn't been that fulfilling/exciting/busy. Nevertheless, here's my list (and on time for once, yay!) -

- BEING EMPLOYED! YES! I finally have a job, as of yesterday. I heard back from Hills Science Diet (pet food company) and they told me I've got the job! I'm SO excited! It's absolutely awesome to know I'll be working and earning money again soon, plus, as an added bonus, this is a job I actualy WANTED! So chuffed!

- FINALLY GETTING SOME GOOD PRINTS FROM MY 120MM BLACK AND WHITE FILM! After three weeks of doing nothing but endless test strips in the dark rooms at uni, I've finally managed to get some good prints! I've got a couple of good ones I can hand in, and I'm pretty happy overall with the final result... even if I did waste about 10 sheets of paper doing test strips alone. I'm done now. Yay. On the left is a photo I took on my mobile phone of one of the prints I did. So proud of myself. Did the shoot myself, developed the negs myself, did the prints myself. It's quite exciting to develop your own photos!

- WATCHING TRASHY TV WITH CHRIS (and Chris in general of course)! I love my trashy tv, (let's face it though, who doesn't?!) and watching it with my Chris was fab. Gossip Girl is addictive. Skins is always amazing. He'll be back for more. Haha. <3

- ALCOHOL SHOPPING WITH JADE! Hahaha. We spent like 45mins in Dan Murpheys today looking at pretty much every spirit in the store, even though we're both pretty much broke. We lingered that long that one of the older male store worker dudes said "You princesses right, or do you need some help?" We giggled and said "No, no, we're right, thanks..." and he's all like "Ok, are you sure?" Hahahaaa. Good times. So much talk of cosmopolitans, sequins, mixers and margaritas.

- THIS WEEK'S INSANE WEATHER! Shouldn't really be a positive cos it hasn't helped me in any way, but it did provide me with two lovely days sitting around at home (I really should have spent the time doing uni work, but I didn't...) and some nice photo opportunities. Hense the photo of the waterfall that was in my front yard. So. Much. Water. It was really nice to snuggle up in bed with a book and read whilst listening to the rain though. Total bliss.

- THINGS IN MY LIFE BEING GENERALLY PRETTY GOOD OVERALL! I'd like to quickly take this rare chance to say that, right now, things are pretty damn good overall. Things are not perfect and never, ever will be, but I'm pretty ok right now. I've finally got a job, home life is... bearable, uni is going kind of ok and things in my life in general are pretty great. Just need to get on top of my uni work and start earning money again and I'll be sweet. So uhh.. yeh. Just wanted to write that down while things are good. I like to stop and think about it sometimes. I'm pretty lucky I think. And I think it's fair to say, anyone who's reading this is pretty lucky too. We have pretty great lives when you take a step back and think about it, I reckon.

- Honourable mentions for this week: my flanelette pjs with goldfish on them (recently they've gotten alot more wear than the rest of my entire wardrobe combined), Phoenix, my ugg boots, finally doing some new tattoo designs, peanut M&Ms, cookie dough Kit Kats, Gotye, chocolate Nesquik, Jack's Mannequin, Weezer, gel pens and highlighters, writing lists, not going to my photo imaging class and staying home in my pjs instead, and my giant white hoodie with the tapes and mobile phones on it (wearing it riiiiight now).

- Dishonourable mentions (I know TiLTs are meant to be positive but whatever, it's my blog, I'll write what I want!) - LARGEST DISHONOURABLE MENTION = MY CAR LEAKING FROM BEING PARKED OUTSIDE IN THE RAIN AND AS A RESULT IT FILLED UP WITH WATER. Yes. I discovered a whole inch of water in my car when I opened it on wednesday to go for a drive. Water had come in where the foot pedals are on the driver's side, so the driver's side whole foot area was an inch deep in water, and of course the back passenger's foot area on the driver's side was an inch deep in water too, because the two areas arn't separated by anything cos my car is old and lame. I had to get 4 towels to soak up most of the water, and I've had my car in the garage with the doors open trying to air it out, but it's still totally soggy and gross. Sigh. The photo to the left is of the water in my car. Wooo. Other dishonourable mentions include: the avalanche of uni work I'm currently trying to navigate my way through (3 exams to study for and 5 assignments to do, pretty sure I won't ever finish at the rate I'm going) and last but not least - the fact that I'm really, really poor. I can't take it anymore. I miss buying things and going cool places. Bring on lots of shifts with my new Hills job!

In other news - This week, Phoenix announced they're doing an Australian "tour". I got mega, mega excited... until they then said they only two shows they were playing would be in Sydney and Melbourne. Needless to say, I'm gutted. Why Phoenix, WHY?! Why come to Australia and only play TWO shows?! COME TO BRISBANE AT LEAST, DAMN IT.
Totally gutted.

That's pretty much it for now.. I think.
Hope you all enjoyed my on time TiLT list!
Woo!

Happy reading!
xx

TiLT - 26

Hello everyone!

I'm posting my TiLT at 9:27pm on a WEDNESDAY! I'm so organised for my TiLT this week that I've decided to post it a few hours early! (Plus I'm always really busy on a thursday so this'll work out best I think) YAY YAY YAY.

Things I'm Loving This Thursday:
(This week's list is a bit short cos I've had a bit of a rough one but I'm still being postive so yay me!)

BLACK BOOKS! Oh em gee. Watched all of season 1 with Chris on Thursday night (last week) and now I’m hooked. Thanks <3

DELETING CRAP OFF MY PC! My pc was about to die because it was so full. I bought myself a new 500gb external hard drive, a 8gb USB and an 8gb SD card (for my camera) and so now I’m all sorted for file storage. Thanks Dan!!! My computer still has a lot of stuff to be deleted off it but at least now it can breathe again. YAY.

PASSING ASSIGNMENTS I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO FAIL! Woo! I’ve actually been doing pretty well at uni (so far) and it’s amazing. I got a distinction for my modernism essay! I'm so chuffed! Haha.

INDOOR PICNICS! Rachel came over on Saturday, we had a lovely indoor picnic on my bedroom floor and watched most of Season 2 of Black Books whilst painting our nails, chatting and eating. It was great! <3

THROWING THINGS OUT! Rachel helped med be ruthless and sort through my clothes (again). I ended up giving away 15 bits of clothing and a pair of shoes. I won’t miss any of it, I’m sure. Thanks Rach!

BEING COMPLIMENTED ON MY NOSE RING! Saturday night I got a lot of compliments about my nose ring. It was really weird but awesome. Especially the “Most people could not pull that off, but it really suits you”. I dunno, made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Haha.

LAST FM! Oh my god it is amazing. I don’t understand how on earth it can be so clever. As well as this, it provides much amusement and entertainment for me, I’m on there alllll the timeeeee. Thanks Chris for encouraging me to get one. Add me on Last.Fm

Well that's my list for this week.
In other news, I've been applying for more jobs - my grand total of job applications since April is now 37. I'm waiting to hear back from Hills (fingers crossed cos i really want that job!) and I'm going for an interview at a fruit and veg shop on friday if I don't get the Hills job. Woo.
On top of job searching I'm also trying to cope with uni - I've got 5 assignments and 4 exams to do in the next three weeks. I really do not know how I am going to cope. Wish me luck!

That's all for now
Hope you've all had a nice week so far!
xx

Failure

Image by Scout Pare Phillips

“Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains two descriptions: might have, & should have.” — Louis E. Boone

The 70’s called, they want their lingo back.

CHUFFED.

Rachel and Jade made a good point the other day – I use a lot of strange words regularly when I talk. I never really noticed until they pointed it out.
Weird words I've realised I say alot include but are not limited to - jazzed, chuffed, rad, neat, and dude. I also start a lot of sentences with “man”. Eg. "Man, I’m so chuffed about my new bedroom."
I should be in the 70’s. Haha.

In other news, this weekend will be dull and inexpensive. Woo.
Doing nothing but house work today and Rach's coming over later. I've got a load of washing on, I've tidied my room, and I'm in the process of tidying up the contents of my pc. When I opened the new box of washing powder it exploded all over the laundry bench. Fun times. I'm gonna paint my nails later too. Man, I'm so exciting right now. you're jealous, for sure.
Going to dinner tonight at an ex-co-worker's house.
More sitting around the house tomorrow.
Helping Sarah with a doggie photoshoot on sunday arvo.
Mother's day stuff with family on sunday night... Grandparents over for dinner etc.
And then it will be monday again.
SO DULL.
Blah.

I went to the gym twice this week, getting back into it after having a whole week off. Go me.
Also I want new clothes and shoes and cds.
I can be so materialistic sometimes.
I really do want new clothes though. Clothes I actually like. And shoes... I really want some cow boy boots, and some of these. I've wanted shoes in that style for about a year. Still don't have any. One day though. I've also been eyeing these off for a while. The style is called Stud Muffin. Hehehee. They're gorgeous. Anywho...
I'm also (still) debating whether or not to buy one of these. A Fuji Instax Mini 7S with a bunch of boxes of film. I've been looking at them for about 6 months and desperately want one but dunno if it's worth all the dollars or not. Hmmmm. I really, really, really want it though. Gah. Damn you Ebay, damn you.
One major problem with me wanting all these lovely new things - I'm REALLY poor.
I want and need a job SO BAD. IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS. GAH.

That's pretty much all I have to say for now.
xx

TiLT - 25

Yo Yo Yiggedy Yo!

Hope everyone's had a fantastic week!
Mine's been ok... all over the place really.

Anywho, here's this weeks TiLT list, yet again I wrote it on wednesday night and haven't had the chance to post it until now...
Nevertheless, things I was loving this thursday were:

- Handing in my 3 assignments last thursday and friday! I handed in 3 rather large pieces of assessment last week and was rather stressed about it. However, I got them all in on time and complete, so yay for that.
- DEVELOPING MY 120MM ROLLS OF FILM. OH MY GOD. THEY CAME OUT WONDERFULLY AND LOOK GREAT. I GOT A WHOLE 24 SHOTS, EVERY SINGLE ONE CAME OUT, YESSS.
- Spending almost all weekend with Chris <3 We didn't even go anywhere other than the movies but I had a great weekend. Gooood stuff.
- THE BOAT THAT ROCKED. Oh em gee. Go and see it. It was aweeeeesome and has a great assortment of characters!
- Ugh boots! Glad it's finally getting cold enough to wear my uggies again. I even wore them to the movies on saturday night. Haha. Classy.
- Banana coconut chop chip muffins! Om nom nom. I like baking when I have the time to.
- Long weekends. Seriously, not going to uni on monday and going to Shorncliffe with some of my most favourite people instead was total bliss. Yay public holidays yay.
- Seeing Dan! Saturday night I went and saw my lovely Dan and met his new roomies! Dan even cooked a roast. I peeled the veggies. Good times.
- PHOENIX! AKA - My new fave band. Oh my god they’re great. Thanks to JJJ, Alison and Chris for introducing me to them.
- NEW HAIR! Mum cut my fringe + dyed my hair last weekend. No more blonde, and even better, no more trashy regrowth. Win!
- Tripod from Grandpa! He gave it to me, it's barely used and awesome and yay yay yay. I love finally having my own tripod, thankyou Grandpa! <3
- And on the note of Grandpa - He drove me to my job interview at Acacia Ridge on wednesday! It was awesome and the interview went well, fingers crossed I get the job.

The end
<3

Turn your last fm into a words picture.

How cool is that?!
Alison showed me.
I wish it would upload bigger but whatever. Click on it to see a larger version. Wooooo.
It's my last fm made into a words picture. You can make your own here.
All the bands I listen to most, the size of the font is larger depending on the play count of the band from my itunes.
Cool right?
I only got last fm a few days ago but man it is cool. Thankyou Chris.
I'm currently sitting on my bed with Al and Jade... we've all got our laptops in our laps and we're internetting. We're uber nerds. It's awesome. I love them.
xx

TiLT - 24. A few days late. Again.

Hello everyone!

Yet again I've been slack with my TiLT. I actually wrote this whole list on wednesday night, and yet again, haven't gotten around to actually posting it until now.
I'll try to be better next week, really.

Things I was loving this thursday -
(This whole list feels like forever ago cos it's sunday now and I wrote it on wednesday night about what'd happened between last thursday and this wednesday, if that makes sense...)














- DOGGIE DATE WITH CAITEY AND INDIE. Last thursday (23.04.09) Caitey and I took our dogs to the Bracken Ridge dog park. Had the best afternoon ever, it was so much fun :) Can't wait to do it allll again. We got up to some really random shit and had a mad time. Lol. The photo above is Indie and Ze Ze mid-play :)









- THE BASICS! Last friday (24.04.09) I went to see The Basics at The Globe. They were awesome and it was made even more awesome cos I was there with some of my favourite people - Chris, Rach, Jack and Al <3 Andddd the photo above is one I took from the gig. Man they were great.
- MY WALL IS GONE. I've already blogged about it but yeh. Painting over my wall this time last weekend was amazing. It's gone. Moving on. It's great.
- HEADBANDS! Home made head bands with bows to be more specific. I bought a bunch of headbands and covered them in pretty ribbon and made some bows and stuck those on too. Craft is fun.

















- TAKING PHOTOS ON A MEDIUM FORMAT FILM CAMERA WITH JADE! Last friday (24.04.09) I did a shoot with Jade in the studio at uni. Had the best time ever, even if I was freaking out about my lighting set up and ISO and shutter speed and whatever. It was great overall, had the best time. Thankyou Jadey <3 The photo above is one I snapped with my digi during the shoot. Hope you don't mind me putting it on my blog Jade! Sorry! I really like all the photos from the shoot though.
- PHOTOS! Last friday I took photos with 4 different cameras in ONE day, oh yeah. I used a Rollei at uni, my DSLR, my Lumix and my tri-lens action sampler, all in one day! SO MANY PHOTOS. It was greeeeeeeat.
- LAST SUNDAY! <3
- ZERREN! Using Zerren in two of my photography assignments, hehehee. I love him.
- MY CHIROPRACTOR! I’ve been going since I was 8 and it still makes me feel better, my back is less sore afterwards which is nice.
- CHRIS. ‘Nuff said.
- HAND ME DOWNS! Jade and I cleaned out our rooms and swapped a few belongings – I got a few bits of clothing from Jade, she got a few jewellery bits and pieces from me. Good stuff. I’m all for recycling.
- FEELING SPECIAL! Having someone say to me they are glad they found me and that I’m in their life <3
- RACHEL! I LOVE YOU! On wednesday night (29.04.09) Rachel and I talked on the phone from 8:15 – 10pm, ohhhh yeah. If we were long distance lovers we’d totally keep each other entertained. Lol. You're great Rach.

The end!
Hope you all had a fab week!
I'll try to actually post my TiLT on thursday this week! Gah!
xx