You can disconnect my heart.

I've been reaching for the highest shelves, reading the oldest books
But I still don't feel intelligent and I'd smile if I could
You're the only face I'd ever miss, the one that makes me smile
I'm distraught about the way you left, in the city lovers die.
They assessed how much i love you and it's too much to give grade
The type of girl, if you where homeless you'd give all your change
And I'm done feeling sorry for myself
No I feel sorry for myself now you're gone
Oh I wish you weren't gone
You can disconnect my heart
Because I feel so far away from everything
Away from everyone
I can feel the weight of me decisions pinching at my spine
I've become my own worst enemy, this smiles hiding lies
And if I could I'd cramp the distance that's made our hearts grow weak
You're the only girl I'll always ever miss but never get to meet
And I can't breathe without you close
And I'm sick of all my clothes, I'm finding things a bit too much
Im finding things a bit too much
I wish you all the best
I'll miss you, you're the best
And I'm done feeling sorry for myself
No I feel sorry for myself now you're gone
Oh I wish you weren't gone
You can disconnect my heart
Because I feel so far away from anyone
Away from everyone
Girl the distance will come between us, don't you laugh

"Distance" - Ellington.
My fave song of theirs. Parts of the song kinda sum up how I feel at times.

I THINK TOO MUCH AND THIS BLOG IS FULL OF THINKING.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!

I've come to realise things always continue to be fairly the same in my life.
Not good, not bad, but just ok.

Whenever something good happens, something bad always happens to cancel the good thing out and then I'm just left somewhere in the middle which is just luke warm, confusing and frustrating.
Even though there are good things in my life, really good things, plenty of them, there's always the bad things aswell, and so I'm left feeling niether good or bad but just annoyed and blank.
I can be having a great day and then one after another, all these things go wrong which add up and leave me feeling terrible. It happens ALL the time.

Like, one small example, last week I spent a day painting a Traffic Signal Box for the Brisbane City Council (the picture is of my TSB - it's outside a primary school. It's not finished yet though). It's part of this community art project called Artforce and you do it for the Council for free and get to paint in a public place. Whilst I was doing this, I got a parking ticket, from none other than the Brisbane City Council. Like, it's so retarded. I was doing a painting for them for free and then they come and give me a parking ticket so now I have to give THEM money. Argh.


I've come to realise things are always continuing to be the same for me in my life. On and on. Day in, day out.
I feel like I'm walking in circles sometimes. I really do.
And I can't seem to break out of the mould that I was put in in high school. I'm not perfect or innocent or better than you or boring or condecending. I'm not ANY of these things and I'm really sick of people labelling me as all these things which I'm really not.

I want to escape out of this never ending cycle of things but I don't know how.
Things always seem to come and go in the same pattern for me, they really do.

Ugh. I can't even really explain what I mean.
I need to get out of my head and stop analysing everything over and over until I'm so sick of everything I feel like I could scream.

Sigh.

In other news -
- I'm back at uni this week for my second semester. Woo.
I did pretty well last semester and I'm proud of myself for doing well so I'm gonna try and keep it up. Fingers crossed. I'm actually really excited to start my 3D media classes tomorrow. We get to do art with wire and clay and wood and metal and other cool stuff like that. It's gonna be SO RAD. Only truly interesting subject i have this semester. Lol.
- I'm going to MELBOURNE IN SEPTEMBER! I'm seeing Wicked with Lex. Wicked is in 59 days. I'm so so so so so so so excited! I need to start saving up lol. And I need to book flights. My poor poor bank account.
- I got a new fish this afternoon! I thought I'd try my luck at a gold fish this time. I havn't named him yet but I feel proud coz I bought him a little air bubble thingy and everything. He seems really happy. Poor Marley, RIP buddy, I tried my best.
- Work is frustrating me. Almost every single customer these days bitches to me aobut the prices of things. I wouldn't go into ANY shop and bitch to the person who was surving me about their prices, so I don't see why people do it to me. And what's worse, we're one of the cheapest (if not the cheapest) vet clinics in the area, so like, wtf people?! AND I DO NOT FREAKING CONTROL THE PRICES OF SERVICES OR PRODUCTS IN OUR SHOP. I JUST SELL THE STUFF. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU RUDE PEOPLE. YOU'RE DRIVING ME INSANE.
- I'm totally over being single but I'm too shy to meet new people. I think I'm destined to be alone. I really do. And the boys I like never like me back anyway. Ugh.
- I bought hair dye the other day. "Intense deep burgundy" will be my new hair colour. Wooooo. I love having maroon hair. It makes me happy.

Other than all that things are as usual.
Bland.

I'm finished blogging I think.
For now at least.
I almost feel as if it doesn't really matter anyway coz barely anyone even reads my blogs.

Hello to Rach if you're reading this. I love you. You're my twin and you're great. I wish I could make you happy. <3

THE END.

MASSIVE BLOG OF MASSIVE FOR JULY.

OH MY GOSH IT'S BEEN A VERY LONG TIME SINCE I'VE LAST BLOGGED.










I feel bad for not blogging in so long, I've really wanted to but kept getting distracted with real life stuff like hanging with friends and concerts and going shopping and going to work and whatnot.
I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE, I'VE GOT THAT MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT.
YOU BETTER BELIVE IT.
Buckle up, this is going to be a long ride...

So, since I last blogged, which was the week of the end of Uni semester one, I've been rather busy. (Get ready for a giant list of stuff... Mostly this is in list form BECAUSE I LIKE LISTS AND THIS IS MY BLOG SO SUCK IT. Yep.) GIANT LIST OF RECENT THINGS I'VE DONE IS AS FOLLOWS:

- I've been to the Sunny Coast with Jack and Katie. Katie and I watched Sex and the City, Gilmore Girls and also Scrubs for hourssss on end. Fantastic. And the three of us drank lots and ate lots and I baked cookies. It was great. Living with Jack and Katie and riding in Katie's car was great. I love Jack and Katie. I miss them. Damn them for living an hour away and damn me for being too lazy to see them more often.


- I've been to Bundaberg/Bargara and became a member of the Bundy Crew.
It was great. Lots of good times were had. Lots of food was eaten, lots of music was listened too, lots of photos were taken. And! I even DROVE home from Bundy! 5 hours of highway driving! It was insane! The group photo is us ont he side of the Bruce Highway on the way home. I'd wanted a group photo all trip and that was when we decided to take one, on the side of the highway, as you do. Lol. Jack had a flat tire and no one but Lex and I knew how to change tires so she and I did it while the remainder of the Bundy Crew stood and watched. Haha. So discraceful, 4 boys on the trip and no one knew how to change a tire. Haha!
- I've seen SOMETHING WITH NUMBERS live. With Jade. It was rad. The Zoo is our new favourite place.

- I went to The Grates' secret show.. which was rad because it turned out to be ON A BOAT. And I met and got photos with all three members of The Grates and generally had a radtacular time with my mates and met some new people too. One of the absolute best nights I've had in a lonnnnng time. So many awesome people and so so so much awesome music. I met Al's friend Matt from Syney. He's pretty rad as far as internet friends go :) AND I GOT TO SEE MY LONG LOST FRIEND KATEY! WOO! She won't read this but she's rad all the same. It was a great night, so rad to see The Grates live again and to hear their new songs! AND I WAS IN THE FRONT ROW, DEAD CENTRE, AND PATIENCE SUNG TO ME AND IT WAS WONDERFUL. And in Howl I got to be a wolf and howl into Patience's microphone. Coz I'm cool like that. AND! I bought their new single and when we left we got little Grats party bags which were super cute! :) A RADTACULAR NIGHT WAS HAD BY ALL. Thankyou to The Grates and Triple J for a fantastic night out. (The two photos above and below this are form the show.. There's one of Lex, Jade and myself looking out onto the river taken by the loverly Jackus, and one of Patience which I took) :)

- I've been to work a fair few times. It's pretty good most of the time. It's pretty normal.

- I've been shopping. It's very easy to spend money. Which is bad. BUT! I've now got alot of clothes and shoes and things. Wooo. I went shopping on sunday and got jeans, 3 tops, a cardigan type thing, a dress, some high heels and a skirt! WOO! MY WARDROBE IS NOW COMPLETE AND OVERFLOWING.

- Lex and I have been organising our trip to MELBOURNE in September to see WICKED! I'm so so so excited. I love Lex and Melbourne and I'm so excited to see Wicked. :D Wooo. Lex and I and our mums are all gonna go together. Coz we're that cool. It's gonna be wicked. Get it. Haha. I'm so lame.

- I've had sleepovers with mates. And gossip sessions. Yep. AND PICNIS! WE HAD A PICNIC THURSDAY! It was greeeeeeat :D

- I've drunk soymilk. Chocolate flavoured soymilk to be exact. Alison got me onto it years ago but I bought a whole litre of it the other day just coz I was in the mood for it. I'm drinkign the last of it riiiiiight now. Nom nom nom.

- I've eaten so much junk food that it's just not cool anymore. Lol. I want fruit and vegetables and nothing else. Haha.

- I've organised for me to paint another TSB (traffic signal box) like the one I did last year. This one's in Bald Hills near the primary school. I'm gonna paint it with pencils and stuff on it, I'll probs be doing it on monday/tuesday next week! Woo!

- I've listened to ALOT of music. SO SO SO MUCH NEW MUSIC. I bought the new Birds of Tokyo cd, amoung others. I love their new album so so so much. It's wonderous. Oh and I've watched a bit of tv.And listened to Jade on 99.7FM radio. She's great at being a radio presenter, destined for JJJ she is.

- I've been on some crazy road trips, one of which was rather epic and was last night. I've been trying not to use people's names in my blogs but whatever, it's too hard not to. I give up.

So this is how it goes - the adventure of last night: Ree rang Lex and I, offering to come and pick us up from Lexy's and take us to her parents' house for a parteee coz her arents were on holiday and therefore not home. Lex and I said yes. 8:30pm rolls round and Ree and Emma come and pick up Lex and I. The adventure begins here haha.
We drove from Bridgeman Downs to Warner to pick up Richelle. Then we drove to Scarborough to pick up Michael. At this point there was 6 of us in Ree's car, a 5 seater little Rav 4. Yep. Richelle, myself, Lex and Michael all smooshed in the back seat and one of us had to duck whenever we saw the cops drive by coz we didn't wanna get Ree in trouble for having more passangers than she had seats. Lol. Hilarious. So, we then drove to Ree's parents' place at Roxburg, which took about 40 mins from Michael's house. So we arrive at Ree's place, on top of her mountain at Roxburg, by which time it was about 10:30pm, and we're more than ready to have some drinks and about to jump out of Ree's car when BOM BOM BOM Ree's parents arn't on holiday! OH NO! They were home! We pulled up and there's not one, but TWO cars in the driveway, and Ree's parents are inside their house ASLEEP, and Ree had just rocked up to their place at 10:30pm on a thursday with a car load of people thinking that her rents were on holiday. Lol. So, after some awkwardness and Ree having a quick chat to her mum which was basicaly "What are you doing here with these people?! Go away." (understandable though aye) we left Ree's parent's place feeling kind of lost and disgruntled without anywhere decent to go. We ended up then driving from Roxburg to Narangba to drop Emma off, then back to Warner to drop Richelle home. Then it was Ree, Michael, Lex and I, still with no where to go and wanting to do something other than continue driving for the rest of the night. SO! We head from Warner to the city, to Ree's apartment and crash there the night. LOL. MOST EPIC AND USELESS DRIVING ADVENTURE EVER. So, Ree picked Lex and I up at 8:30pm and we didn't get to her place in the city until MIDNIGHT. Lol. Along the way we drove to a million places, nearly got pulled over by the cops for having too many passangers, speeding, and having loud music, and we almost ran over about 3 rabbits and a cat. Not to mention us back seat riders all ended up with sore spines from being smooshed in the back seat for like an hour and a half, BUT, overall, it wasn't that bad a night, and hey, it makes a good story. Lol.
SO THAT WAS MY EPIC STORY OF OUR EPIC ROAD TRIP FROM LAST NIGHT. WOOO.

People are amusing. I've been thinking about these sorts of things of late. Like taking a step back and thinking about the ways in which other people are. If that makes sense.
The more people I meet the moe I like my dogs lol. It's so true. There's so many rude people I've come across lately.
Some people just don't give up when they want something. Haha. It makes me laugh.
Some people are rude. Like some of the angry customers at work.
Some people are really, really hypocrytical. I hate it.
And some people are just damn confusing.
Yep. I'll stop analysing things now.

So yeah.
That was epic.
I'm all blogged out now.
Many more concerts and social gatherings coming up, and I'm back at Uni for another adventurous semester as of July 21st. Woo.

BYE FOR NOW FAITHFUL READERS!

OH! ALSO! Happy birthday to Sammy Bear. He's now the ripe old age of 15. Sorry I didn't have a new blog written for you on your birthday mate. Oh well. Happy birthday all the same. Hope it was a good one even if I refused to supply you with alcohol. Haha.

AND! HAYDEN! IF YOU ARE READING THIS YOU SUCK. Sif you'd read your older sister's blog. Honestly. LIKE WHY WOULD YOU WANNA READ THIS HAYDEN? Pfffft.
Happy birthday for sunday though. You're also turning 15. Woo.

OK I AM NOT WRITING ANYTHING ELSE NOW.
This blog is epic. Over 1600 words.
I'm rad-to-the-core. I wish more people read this.
Anywho, I'm going now.
BAI!

Mod ?

If I had the choice, I wouldn't raise my voice
I would be normal but extraordinary.
l don't want to say, The things I have to say yeah
I don't wanna say things ordinary.
This may put a smile on my face, time and time again.
Reach into my mouth rip out my tongue, There's my only friend.
Now I cannot talk,
These words are only thoughts
Taken down from my head to paper,
Written down for thee,
Banning also me,
we'll rehearse it and play it later.
This may put a smile on my face, time and time again.
Without words I'm lost for things to say, I want back my best friend.
Barnicles and stripes,
Barnicles and stripes.
These two words are normal but extraordinary,
Together mean nothing like tugboats and hairy.
This may put a smile on my face, time and time again.
Reach into my throat pull out my tongue,
There's my only friend.
Hear me, Hear me,
Barnicles and stripes,
Barnicles and stripes.

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Barnicles and Stripes, Something with Numbers.

I have a long running obsession with Something with Numbers.
They're coming to town and I'm going with Rachel. I'm excited. Specially coz I missed out on seeing them at the Big Day out. Yep.

I don't usually write a blog two days after I've just posted one but I need to vent. I'll try and keep it short.
EVERYONE READ MY OTHER RECENT BLOG TOO PLEASE.
I PUT EFFORT INTO THAT ONE. IT HAS PRETTY PICTURES.

Ok so venting session -
I seem to have the inate ability to piss almost everyone (friends and family and co-workers included) in my life off lately, for many various reasons.
Worst part is, most of the time I don't even mean to, or worse, don't even know I'm doing it.
I don't mean to annoy everyone. I really don't.
I feel terrible for pissing people off and I don't mean to.
And I feel even more terrible knowing I've pissed people off and have been totally oblivious to it.
I DON'T MEAN TO ANNOY PEOPLE. ALOT OF PEOPLE SEEM TO BE GETTING MAD AT ME AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW I'VE ANNOYED THEM.
I'm not a horrible person, really. I'm not.
I'm sorry.
- End of vent session.

And, one other thing which is neither positive nor negative but I wanna write about it anyway. I got called "mod" today with work.
Not punk or emo or scene or indie. Mod.
It all started coz I got my nose pierced on monday, right, and I went to work today and everyone there had never seen me with my new nose piercing, but no one even mentioned it, at all.
Dunno if people just noticed and weren't sure if it was new or just didn't notice but either way no one said anything.
Then, like 3 hours into my shift at work, one of the nurses stops me when I'm mopping and points to my nose and goes "Is that new?"
Me: "Yeah, I got it done monday." (Secretly thinking, "Omg someone actually noticed!")
Her: "Yeah, I saw it and wasn't sure if you'd always had it or not." Now, this co-worker is the one and only person who's been at work the entire time I've been there, as in, everyone else's come and gone and she and I are the only originals left, right, so she's known me for THREE YEARS. And yet, she sees me with a new nose piercing and thinks I've had it the entire time. Lollollol. I guess it just seems like something I would have? Or something that suits me? I don't know.
The person who noticed and said all this then made me stand still while she COUNTED how many peircings I have, was rather alarmed that I now have a grand total of 8, and then was like: "Well, you're very mod then arn't you, with all your peircings!"
I'm like: "Oh.. ok.. thankyou?"
So apparently now I'm labelled as "mod".

The end.
Read my other recent blog.

Awesomeawesomeawesome.

AWESOME.
EVERYTHING (WELL, ALMOST EVERYTHING...) IS AWESOME RIGHT NOW.

Gonna try and keep this blog short, but things are good right now and I always ramble regardless of how I'm feeling about the world so we'll see how this goes. Lol.

REASONS WHY THINGS ARE (MOSTLY) AWESOME:

- Got my nose pierced yesterday. Woo!
- FINISHED SEMESTER ONE OF UNI YESTERDAY. BEST FEELING EVERRRRR. I survived my first semester of uni! It was SO STRESSFUL.
- I got my marks back for some of my assignments, I did really well :D I GOT A DISTINCTION FOR VISUAL ART! YESSSS! I'm proud of myself.
- Things are generally just good as of yesterday and today.
- I'm on Uni hols!!! I don't have any classes until the 21st of July!
- I get to see alot of my favourite people at various places and social events this week :)
- I'M GOING UP THE COAST THIS WEEKEND! AND BUNDY NEXT WEEKEND! AND SYDNEY THE WEEK AFTER! YESSSS!
- Photo at the top of the blog is my new Cons. My first pair of REAL cons. I love them
- Did I mention I'm finished semester one of Uni ? :D
- I got LOADS of new cds like 2 weeks ago and I'm still getting through them all. New music is great. Trial Kennedy. Tegan and Sara. The Ting Tings. Death Cab for Cutie. Sparkadia and White Rabbits. LOVELOVELOVE.
- New episode of Gossip Girl on tv tonight! My mate's coming over, we're gonna watch it together. We have a tradition of her coming over tuesdays and us watching Gossip Girl together. Makes me feel girly lol.
- I'm not working much this week, which is bad for my bank account but good for my social life. Hehe.
- Today I dyed my friend's hair. Yess. She's cute. She sleptover last night aaaand I convinced her to watch my Molly Ringwald movies - we watched Sixteen Candles and then Pretty in Pink. Oh Molly Ringwald, you're so greaaat.
- After dropping that friend off, I went and got the train and caught up with a different friend. We ate pizza and gelati and brownines and apple turn overs. We hit up the Valley in search of decent food and then walked all the yay to New Farm in search of a gelati shop. I got mango gelati and the nice lady gave me a scoop of starwberry for free! There's a pciture of it to the left of this text. It was such good gelati. Haha. Then we walked back to the Valley, got various foods, looked in alllll the Asian suoermarekts II bought Hello Panda biscuts!) and then got the train to the city. THEN we ran into another mate of ours and the three of us looked at cds and stuff. Woooo. The two photos at the bottom blog are ones I took on my mobile phone (lol) whilst we were wandering through New Farm.

I'M FINALLY STARTING TO MORE POSITIVE ABOUT MY LIFE IN GENERAL.

Ok yeah.
So I'm excited about things.
Woooo!

I dunno what else to say.
Things are pretty good compared to the last few weeks which have been rather dismal.

Yesterday was just so good I could hardly contain myself. Like, wow.
I'm done with semester one of Uni. I can't believe I survived. And, even better, I'm on holidays now! HOLIDAYS!
Fingers crossed I pass everything!

I'm gonna leave this blog here I think.
Wooo.
Too excited. Too much to doo.

BYEEEEE.
<3

Too much to do

They tell me that you're doing fine.
But I wish had the time,
to get through to you.
But all I can do is give you some space
to chase someone else to be the sun, sitting in your little sky.

Too much to do and there's not enough time, not enough time.

Walking past your place the other day, I wish that I could stay
for a little while or more. But there's places to go and people to see.
Time runs away so easily it never waits for me.

Too much to do and there's not enough time, not enough time.

I told her all of this too late she looked me up and down,
and turned to walk away.
With time we'll both know,
that it's best we both go.
Before the night becomes the day
and there's nothing more to say

Too much to do and there's not enough time, not enough time.

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Sparkadia "Too much to do"
Oh how I loooove that song.

ANOTHER EXCITING EDITION OF THE LOUCHASY CHRONICLES...

So yes, long time no blog, I know.
Sam, you can stop bugging me about writing a new blog now, coz here it is - my new blog, read it and enjoy it and stop bitching. Haha.

So, alot's happened since I last wrote a blog.
Same old same old really, just been uber busy with uni and work and concerts and social life stuffs.

Finally got to go to the Kisschasy concerts I've been waiting for! They were both wonderful. Best nights everrr.
I was in the second row, centre for the 18+ show and FRONT ROW, left side for the AA show. FANTASTIC.Aaaaaand during the AA show Karl (drummer of Kisschasy) threw one of his sticks into the audience. I caught one of end it, some other girl caught the other end.
I was both excited and annoyed coz I didn't wanna let go of that drum stick. Just before things were about to get nasty with pushing and showing and me considering yelling: "I GAURENTEE I LOVE KISSCHASY MORE THAN YOU!" at the girl who caught the other end of the stick, my mate Ree was like: "SNAP IT IN HALF!"
So we did. I then moshed for the rest of the show with half a drum stick in my hand. AND ZOMFG I GOT THE WHOLE BAND TO INDIVIDUALLY SIGN IT AFTER THE SHOW.
I WAS THE HAPPIEST GIRL ALIVE.I bought a cool new Kisschasy shirt tooooo <3And loads of my mates were at the AA show, which was rad. And James and I had fun at the 18+ show. And The Donnas and The Getaway Plan were rad support bands.
I love Kisschasy alot alot alot. I love photographying them too. I'm rather proud of my photos.


















Annnd then there was the Repeat Offender/Avalon Drive show the saturday after that, and then the Steven Childs/Nina May show last weekend. So great.
So, so, so great.
I had a wholeeeee herd of friends at the RO/NM gig. Fan-freaking-tastic :D
Took a few nice photos too. Ohhhhh how I love photography! :)


















Apart from that things are fairly dull.
Working lots at work.
I'm drowning in uni assignments. They're all due on the 10th and 16th of June. Ack. That's like 5 days away.
I'll be ok.
I hope.
I should be doing stuff right now but I really just felt like blogging and when I get an urge like that I just gotta run with it coz I don't get them all the time lolll.

EXCITING! I got 6 new cds on monday - Sparkadia's "Postcards", Tegan and Sara's "The Business of Art", White Rabbits' "Fort nightly", The Ting Tings' "We Started Nothing", Trial Kennedy's "New Manic Art" aaaaaand Death Cab for Cutie's "You can play these songs with chords" I bought 4 of them, my mate bought the other two.
I'm now broke. Basically. Haha.
Broke but happily drowning in loads of newwwwww music.
Cd shopping with my best mate is raddd. I loves her. She's my boonana queen.

I also got another piercing on monday - the cartlidge in my right ear, to match my left ear haha. I've now got 7 in total - 4 in my left ear, 3 in my right ear. Haha. Yep. Nose is next.

Totally random thought, but you know what I hate? I HATE HOW IT GETS DARK SO EARLY IN WINTER. Like, it's only just 5:30pm and it's pitch black outside. Argh.

AND SOMETHING REALLY AWESOME AND SUPER COOL - I'M ON UNI HOLIDAYS FROM NOW UNTIL THE 21ST OF JULY. Heck yess.
I've got plans for the holidays too - Going to the Sunshine Coast for 4 days, Bundaberg for 5 days and Sydney for 2 or 3 days.
I cannot wait to get of Brisbane. I'm so sick of everything right now.
So yes, very excited for the holidays and the fact that I actually have proper plans to get outta here for a bit.
I'm also gonna be working loads of extra hours at the vet. It'll be good. My boss got all excited when I said I could work extra hours coz we're extremely understaffed at the moment, like we usually have 9 nurses, and currently we have like.. 5, 3 of which arn't full time. So yes, my boss was excited when I offered to do extra hours over the uni hols. I need the money too, so everyone wins haha.

I think that's about it for now.
Alot on my mind.
Alot of assignments (I've got 8) to do.
Not much time for sleeping.
I make time for fun social stuffs and work though. Haha.

I've got my timetable for semester two of uni sorted out and I'm really happy with it. Mondays 3 - 5pm, wednesdays 10am - 6pm and fridays 9am - 3pm. Pretty rad.

I handed in some of my Communication Design stuff today. It's all on exhibition at Uni now. Looked pretty cool to see everyone's assignments up on the walls. Mine's the on the left in the top photo - that's my packaging for my product. The bottom photo is my advertising for my product. Woooooo.

















Yep.
I'll stop blogging nowwww.
Until next time, peace outtttt. Lol.
I wish more people read my silly blogs.

This blog is really long. Oops.
The formatting's gonna be retarded when I publish this. Argh. Stupid lame blogger formatting.

ALL PHOTOS IN THIS BLOG ARE COPYRIGHT TO ME. LOUISE WRIGHT. 2008. (c)

Like a book elegantly bound, in a language you can't read

How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can't read - just yet
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective, when we'll be lovers, lovers at last
You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart

You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you, let me down so easily, so easily

You gotta spend some time--love, you gotta spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find--love, I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart

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Death Cab for Cutie "I will Possess your heart"
I adore that song.
Alot.

Apart from listening to Death Cab, things lately have been same old, same old. Nothing too exciting or unusual.
I updated my DeviantArt page - www.esiuol-89.deviantart.com - with some art and a new journal entry, after having not been online on DA for monthssss. I felt so guilty being away from it for so long.

I'M IN A REALLY CREATIVE MOOD. I NEED TO DRAW OR PAINT SO BAD RIGHT NOW.
I will, as soon as I'm done with this blog.
I want to draw more wolves. And trees. And swirls.

I've been drawing alot of tattoo designs lately, swirls mostly, for myself. Just deciding where I want the tattoo to go.. inside of my left ankle most likely. We'll see. I'm too indecisive to make any concrete decisions about ANYTHING in life, even simple things like what to put on my toast at breakfast, let alone a decision about something that will be permanently engraved on my ankle.
Yes. Engraved. Lol.

In other news my fish Marley has been really really ill lately, to the point where I thought I'd come to home to find him dead. I thought I had on a few occasions, then he'd move and swim a bit. He's been sick from a combination of things - the colder weather, possible constipation from too much food and also from the fact that I change all his water every ten days. I've made him sick from loving him too much.
He's got swim bladder issues (the swim bladder is what keeps a fish upright in the water) and he hasn't eated in like.. a week. I got some antibiotics for him from work and he seems to be improving, he doesn't swim upside down or do death spirals head first into his gravel anymore, which is good.
I love my fish, ok. I bought him antibiotics coz I didn't want to just give up on him and flush him down the loo. I'm compassionate. Shut up.

Apart from my fish's issues, everything else is as normal. Well, as normal as my life gets anyway.
I'd like it to stay how it is, my life, just, managable, not exceptionally good, but it has its good bits. I'm learning to deal with all the shitty bits. They're not gonna go away anytime soon, so I'm learning to deal with it.

Random bits of information about my life at the moment are as follows:
Work is shit. I'm over it. But I don't want to quit coz I like the staff. Well, most of them. I worked for 9 hours today. Being happy and polite and overly cheerful and useful and helpful towards customers for 9 hours is insanely draining. We were fully booked all day. Sigh.

Uni is over for the semester in like.. 2 weeks. So that's good. Just gotta do like 10 assignments before then. Eeek. I havn't started any of them. Oops. I'm excited about my 2D media assignment though, OMGLINOBLOCKPRINTINGYAYYAYYAY. <3

KISSCHASY ARE COMING TO TOWN IN 5 DAYS. I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED. I'M GOING TO BOTH BRISBANE SHOWS AND I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MONTHS AND NOW IT'S ALMOST HERE. HECK YES.

I washed my car yesterday, it was rather filthy coz it's always parked outside. Poor Nissy the Nissan. Lolll.

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR MONTHS BUT I'VE FINALLY GOT MY VERY OWN COPY OF "BLANKETS" BY CRAIGH THOMPSON. It came all the way from America. I read the book last year on recommendation from a friend at school and adored it, so I've finally got my own copy to love and have forever. I love Craig's illustraions. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
I also got a book version of the Turner to Monet art exhibition that's currently in the Canberra Art Gallery. AMAZING.

AND ZOMFG I bought myself a THREE DISC MOLLY RINGWALD EXTRAVAGANZA PACK WHICH CONSISTS OF THE BREAKFAST CLUB, PRETTY IN PINK AND SIXTEEN CANDLES. I love Molly Ringwald. I love those three movies. LOVE LOVE LOVE.

Umm yeah. That's all for now.
Hope you enjoyed all the random photos in this blog. since I havn't written one in a while I had a bit of a stockpile of photos I wanted to put in. And the song lyrics too. This is why I need to blog more often, so I don't do these enormous blogs filled with loads of text and pictures and lyrics. Oh well.

Explanation of pictures in this blog...
- The Pretty in Pink picture is coz I bought the movie recently, dah.
- The sheep are from a random forward email my mum sent me coz she knows I like arty stuffs. They're made out of old phones and phone cords. Pretty rad I thought.
- The picture of the books and dvd is the stuff I've gotten recently. Pretty self explanatory.
- There's a photo of one of the corners of my room in there too. Just coz.
- The very first picture is of me and http://thelifeofmeree.blogspot.com/ enjoying our Midori. Yesss. I like it coz it's blurry.
- The one right below this is the view from http://thelifeofmeree.blogspot.com/'s deck in her old house. She lives in the city now, I'm so proud of her and happy for her <3

END OF BLOG.

BYEEEE <3

Bland as white bread

I am bland. I really do feel quite bland.
My life today is bland.
Bland bland bland.
Work is bland.
Uni... is somewhat bland, but ok overall.
Ok well my life isn't really all that bland.
I lied.
It's actually been ok lately, and quite awesome in parts, but I feel bad for not blogging in ages and I can't really think of anything particularly interesting to write.. So I'll just ramble. HOW UNUSAL FOR ME!

So.. I've suddenly realised I've only got 3 weeks of semester one of uni left. Amazing.
I've got so much work to do as well, and, as always, I have very little inspiration or enthusiasm to do so.
Feels like I've only just started uni, but really, I've been at uni for 10 weeks and it's May.
Seems the older I get the quicker time goes by.
I can't decide if I like that idea or not.
Not really I guess.

Whatever.
Moving on before I start to over-analyse everything all over again.

You know what I love?
Spending time doing nothing but sitting around and talking with my mates.
You know what I love even more ?
Doing that in a park. On a picnic rug. With 4 of my most favourite people ever.
That's what I did all day monday.
It was the best pisnic I've ever been on, purely for the fact that it was with some of the raddest people I know and coz the weather was beautiful, we had loads of food and good times were had by all.
It was wonderful.
There was alot of eating and talking and photo taking and running and kicking the ball around and also alot of crash tackling and hugging and attacking in general.
Good times.
I did get kinda hurt though. My wrist/hand is killing me. I can hardly drive. This's what happens when you run around being silly. Lol.
The bone in my butt hurts too. From being crash tackled to the ground and landing on the same bone in my butt twice. Lolll.
Nevermind.

There's a few select people in my life who I could happily spend every hour of everyday with and never get sick of. I'm really greatful for them and I hope they know who they are. There's like.. ten or so of these people. I think.

And you know what else I love?
Music.
And buying new music.
I bought myself the new Presets, The Getaway Plan and also Cut Copy albums on sunday. Aaaah they're all so great. I want to listen to them all at once, all the time.
But I can't.

In other news: Work was quite the terrible experience today. It hasn't been too bad lately but today was shit. Under staffed, over worked and underpaid is what I feel about my job right now.
I got bitten by a bitchy little west highland terrier today. Right in the joint of my thumb. I can't really move my thumb much now. It hurts.
Stupid terrier.

I'm excited coz there's a few exciting things coming up in my life over the next few months - lots and lots of live gigs (including KISSCHASY, REPEAT OFFENDER, KIMYA DAWSON, PANIC AT THE DISCO AND ALSO AVALON DRIVE... JUST TO NAME A FEW), some 18th birthday parties, and, best of all - UNI HOLIDAYYYYYS!
I have no uni classes from the 2nd june through to the 21st of july. I'm excited and wanna go away somewhere or do something special but I don't know what.

I'm so over uni. It's harder than school because there's no real help or guidance from the tutors.
I just really really really hope I pass everything.
It's all I want, to pass, so I don't have to do any of mu subjects again.
That would suck so bad.
I'm considering changing my major from communication design to digital media, but I'm still not really sure.
I'm not sure of anything these days.

All the photos in this blog are from my picnic. It truly was a wonderful day.



I've had enough blogging for now I think.
I could ramble on for about another 1500 words, but I won't.
I'm gonna go to bed instead.

Bai!