Realisations and revelations.

That's a picutre I took in Melbourne. I love it haha.

I've been out of high school almost an entire year now and I'm starting to realise some things.
I feel I've changed a bit and definately grown up a bit.
And yet I look at some (some, not all...) of the people I went to school with, and they havn't changed a single bit. Immature. Selfish. Obsessed with trivial things. Gossip.

I've come to realise that you don't have to be extremely happy with everything to have a good life.
You just have to be at one with yourself.
My life is (contrary to what some people belive) not perfect, not at all, not even one tiny bit. There's alot of things I want, alot of things I wish were different. But, that's me, and I'm not going to be constantly down about the fact that my life isn't always how I want it to be.

We spent a very long time talking about all this in one of my tuts at uni on friday and it really got me thinking. All about how you don't need to be positively beaming and happy and excited all the time to have a good life. It's more important to be at one with yourself, and be able to say "It's ok that I'm sad/mad/angry/tired, and just becuase I feel sad/mad/angry/tired doesn't mean I don't have a good life."
Does that make sense? It does to me. That's all that matters.

As per always, my head's so full of thoughts I feel like I could explode, and now more than ever. It's hard to describe. So many thoughts, so so so many conflicting thoughts.
I should be at uni doing my art assignments right now. But I'm sitting here blogging. I feel like I have to or my brain will explode.

I totally hated myself on friday. And lately in general. I won't go into it but, I've come to realise there's no point to it. No point at all.

I'm sick of being involved in everything.
I'm sick of caring about things/trivial issues/people that don't effect me.
I'm sure as hell sick of having people in my life who don't treat me or my friends well.
I'm sick of trying to please everyone.
I want my life to be easier to live.
I'm so over people I know from school being selfish and fake all the time. Not everyone but just a few, not naming names either. Just people in general.
And they're so fake and they seem happy all the time, but then you see them doing selfish or immature things and you know they're only doing it because they're not at one with themselves, they're empty or shallow or lacking something. Probably love.

People don't realise cos I don't mention it but I have alot going on all the time and always have something on my mind. I have alot of self-related issues and I'm sick of not being happy with my life.
I need change.
I want to be at one with myself and ok with the fact that I am who I am.
It's hard to do.

I'm starting to feel at one with myself and that doesn't mean I'm extatically happy about everything.
Things arn't perfect and I'm slowly realising that that's fine.

AND I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE READING THIS BLOG AND YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M RAMBLING ON ABOUT. I NEED TO BLOG SO I'M BLOGGING. IT'S MY BLOG AND I'LL WRITE WHAT I WANT. So there.
The end of that.

In other news -
The rest of this week WILL BE AWESOME.
Clubbing with Jade thursday night. The Grates concert friday night.
Clubbing with Rachel and Darc saturday night.
PHOTOGRAPHY AT THE HIVE ON SUNDAY.
I'm gonna dye my hair tomorrow. Or tonight.
I'm gonna go get dressed and go to Rachel's now. We're gonna have a rad day.
Yay yay yay.

Also hello to anyone reading this. You probably think I'm insane now but whatever. Haha.
Hullo Matt. =]
Hullo Rachel! ILOVEYOU.
Hullo Sammy Bear.
Hullo Lexy. Imissyou <3

Also, HULLO OCTOBER! where has the year gone ?
Uggh this post'll say I posted it not today, cos I started writing this a few days ago and only just finished it.
It's wednesday october 1st. Yup.

The end.


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"Broken bones" - Birds of Tokyo
It's kinda how I feel sometimes...


Salute the army at hells hand,
Salute the reasons why.

My conscience it wades me,
With five-a-side,
I'll never get out,
I'll never make my stand.

And when I awake,
I'm not about to listen to them,
For I can't wait,
It's not about me.

Stare down the longest line,
Of course this is falling apart,
You fooled me like a rat trap baited,
But I, refuse to buy.

I'm shell-shocked and I've lost my sight.
But I can still hear you calling me.

And when I awake,
I'm not about to listen to them,
For I can't wait,
I'm not about to listen to...
I'm on a highway that leads to the end,
I'm on a highway that leads to the end,
I'm on a highway that leads to the end,
I'm on a highway that leads to...

These broken bones,
This busted smile,
My head it hurts,
I should be leaving now,
I hear your words,
They call my name,
I won't go back,
You must be outta your head.

You say I'm wrong,
You say I'm mad,
If I stay here,
I'll never make it back,
I hear your words,
They call my name,
I won't go back,
You must be outta your head,
You must be outta your head.

No one mourns the wicked.

So, Lex and I and our mums went to Melbourne.
18th - 22nd September.
It was WICKEDLY WONDERFUL AND FANTASTIC.
We went shopping one day for 9 HOURS STRAIGHT. 9 WHOLE HOURS. IT WAS GREAT AND NOW I'M REALLY REALLY POOR. Haha!
And we went to the Queen Victoria Markets and the Shouthbank markets AND LEX AND I WENT TO THE AQUARIUM AND IT WAS RAD. The fishes go gloop. Had to be there haha.
Lex and I hit up Fitzroy and Brunswick Street. Melbourne has a Brunswick Street! So GOOD AND EVERY SHOP WAS SO SO SO INDIE AND LOCAL AND HANDMADE.
And we went to this fantastic exotic pet shop near the Queen Victoria markets. They had everything from turtles to snakes to spiders and fish AND EVEN ... SUGAR GLIDERS! The store was amazing buuuut I'm pretty sure selling sugar gliders as pets is pretty illegal.

WICKED. We went and saw Wicked and it was PHENOMINAL. We were in the fifth row and it was just amazing. The acting, singing, dancing, costumes, set and not to mention the music, provided by a live band who were sitting under the stage! IT WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING AND FANTASTIC.
And aww man, the actors and actresses voices were BRILLIANT. Millsy was fantastic and totally swoon-worthy. Hahaha! =]

We ate at some cool places and had so much coffee and tea and wine and chocolate and pasta. Haha!
And our hotel was nice. Mum and I stayed there last year so that was good.
AND AWW MAN I LOVE THE TRAMS. I wish Brisbane had trams, so easy to catch and they get you everywhere you need to be.
I'll chuck in a few photos too. I took about 500 in the time we were there haha.
I love taking photos.

And I bought so many new clothes and a bag, a scarf and TWO PAIRS OF CHUCKS.

So yes.
Melbourne and Wicked were grrrrrreat.
I could go on and on forever.
But I won't.
So many memories. So many awesome things in Melbourne. I've been twice now, I want to go back there every year.
It's such a great place.

Indie Indie Indie.

Hullo everyone!
(Who even reads my posts anymore? If you read them lemme know ok, that'd make my day. Alot.)

So I'm trying to write shorter blogs more often... When I remember. Haha.
Ok so yeah. Here goes. It'll probably end up long, but hey, who cares. It's my blog. I'll write what I want. Haha.

So, TOMORROW I'M OFF TO MELBOURNE FOR 5 DAYS WITH MY BEST MATE LEX AND OUR MUMS! We're going to go shopping and SEE WICKED ON SATURDAY and go out to lots of nice places to eat and whatnot.
It's going to be so rad. I'm so excited, if you can't already tell.
Part of the reason I wanted to blog was to let some of my excitement out, cos I fear I might explode. Haha.
I'm all packed and I'm so excited I don't even feel like going to bed. I'm like a little kid on christmas eve haha.
So yes, Melbourne will rock. Hardcore.

In other news..
I've handed in a bunch of uni assignments lately. I don't want most of the marks back. I hope I passed everything.
I always expect the worst and usually end up doing pretty well but this time I'm not sure. I really want good marks to keep my GPA up so I can get into Photography next year.
And I found a friend in my art class who's also leaving to do photography next year! So rad. Yep.

Speaking of photography - at work yesterday I set up a mini photo studio with a fabric back drop and everything! I took photos of all of our current puppy pre-school pups. So cute! Some of them turned out pretty well, others not so good, but overall I'm happy with the photos considering it was my first time and most of the puppies were too excited to sit still for even a second. I'll dump some photos in this blog for you all to see the cute-ness and my photography skillz, yo. Haha. Blogger is being a bitch and won't let me upload all of my photos. Gah. It let me do three, one at a time but took foreverr. I give up.

What else.. Umm.. Oh yeah! HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY TODAY: Recieving a MASSIVELY long comliment from my art tutor. Haha! I won't re-count it all word for word, but man, it was AWESOME.
Right, so, I don't think much of my art and my high school are teacher pretty much hated everything I made, so to hear my art tutor at uni give me compliments on my work was just amazing. And I don't care if it sounds stupid or like I'm up myself cos I know I'm not. It was just really assuring to get so many massive compliments from my art tutor. When other students say: "Oh that's really cool." I'm like: "Oh, haha, thankyou!" and don't think too much of it (unless it's a close friends who says it). But coming from my art tutor, it means alot to me. Always.
He said so many awesome things about how inspiring my art is, how it's so great that I experiement with so many interesting mediums, and how I always have so much ambition and drive and enthusiasm for my projects and ideas etc etc etc. He even said infront of the class, "Now, what Louise has done here with her work is just great, what she's done with the experimentation is above and beyond. What she's created and experimented with is at the level I am expecting from all of you" (or something very very similar to that)
I was like: BASHFUL BASHFUL BASHFUL. I just like, wow. I can't really describe it.
My art tutor is one of my fave teachers ever so it meant alot coming from him, considering how little I usually think of myself.
AND! My tutor even said (for the millionth time) that I really should change my degree and go and do a Bachelor of Visual Arts, and he said I wouldn't even need to do a protfolio, he'd just pull some strings and let me in!
AND THE FINAL THING I WANNA SAY ON THIS TOPIC IS: MY ART TUTOR CALLED ME INDIE, AMOUNG A MILLION OTHER AWESOME THINGS, INDIE. He said my art is indie. He said I was indie. And then he was all like: "I can't wait to see what indie artworks you come up with for your final project". Man, being called indie by your art teacher is so cool.

Moving right along... MY WEEKEND WAS RADCORE. I went to the Valley Fiesta friday night, and then went and saw Josh Pyke at the Zoo. Such a great night out!
And saturday night I saw The Frets and RO. Also really really awesome, as always. I was in the front row and RO played for a solid hour and I got some AWEEEEESOME photos. And Sam was there. Hi Sam.

ALSO! I GOT A FACEBOOK! Like a week ago, I decided to finally jump on the Facebook bandwagon after contemplating joining for a long while. I must say, I was rather disapointed. Like, Facebook's pretty good, but it's just like a grown up version of Myspace. Myspace for old people I call it.
And I totally HATE how random people from school that I know of but have never actually had a conversation with KEEP ADDING ME. YOU DON'T KNOW ME BITCHES, SO WHAT'S THE DEAL? Just cos you want to me about to say you have 188532234533456763228 friends on Facebook doesn't make you cool.
Ugh.

And what else.. I love my uni friends and my art Uni friends and my twin and Lex and Jade. Love them all. Alot.

That's about it for now from me I think.
Hope this blog was good reading material. Lol.
Probably wasn't but I feel better now I've blogged so ya.
Stick that in your pipe and smoke it.

Bye
<3

My adoptive mannequins are taller than me.

So, my mate James works for Esprit. He called me last night, asking if I wanted any mannequins for free, so today I went in with a family friend in his giant 7 seater car and we picked up as many mannequins as we could fit in the car.

They are super fun to play with. And taller and thinner than me.
Lol.

Mum reckons I'll have nightmares but I don't. I think they are rad and it's kinda surreal but cool having mannequins of my own all of a sudden. They're worth about $300 each for the whole ones. I have two whole ones and some extra torsos and spare arms. I probs won't keep all the extra torsos though.
It was super fun leaving the store with them all on a trolley and getting funny looks from people.
And then driving home with a car full of mannequins, good times.

Anywho.

IN OTHER NEWS:- Uhhh Uni is ok. I was dumb last week and left my giant art assignment until two days before it was due. Go me.
My other assignment went ok, my interview. Except my computer won't burn cds, instead just eats them and makes them corrupt, which isn't useful when both of my assignments had parts that had to be handed in on cd. Oh well. Rachel saved the day for my art assignment and burnt my powerpoint presentation on a disc at her house for me. I love Rachel.
- I have two RO gigs I'm going to this week on thursday and saturday. I'm excited. It'll be gooood. Even if I go alone, I don't even care lol. And I'm going out with Ree and Lex and I don't know who else on frday night. Should be good. =]
- I'M GOING TO MELBOURNE WITH LEXY AND OUR MUMS NEXT THURSDAY. THATS 9 DAYS AWAY! I'M SO FREKAING EXCITEDDDD. WICKEDWICKEDWICKEDWICKED!
- Went to an unofficial work party/get together/drinking and bitching session on saturday night. It was fun as, except when Melinda stood up and the big wooden picnic table we were all sitting at flipped up and all the alcohol on the table landed on me. Mmmm vodka punch flavoured jeans.
- I got lots of new music from Lexy. It's great. I love her to bits. =]
- I washed my car today. It was filthy and full of dirt and pine needles and leaves cos it's always parked outside. It's clean and shiny now. Go me.
- I keep running into random people I know at uni and in the city. It's really great.
- Work is annoying me a bit. I like it but I'm so over working EVERY saturday.
- Rachel and I went super-speed fabric shopping yesterday! We got fabric for me, she's going to make me a dress. It's gonna be black and white vertically striped, with purple straps and a bow on the back. =] She's got sewing skillz.
- I got my cons I bought off Ebay from the post office on friday, ILOVETHEMALOT. They're cute and comfy. And only cost $49 plus $11 postage. Still loads cheaper than the shops. They're rad. There's a picture of them in this blog. Above what you're reading now. I'm still on a mission to buy the red and white striped extra high ones though. I will buy some, hopefully in Melbourne next week. (I love being able to say that, "In Melbourne in next week") Haha.

I think that's it for now in terms of news.

This blog's rant topic: FATHERS DAY.
I hate commercial holidays. I really do. I always have. Ever since I was old enough to know Santa wasn't real. These stupid commercial holidays make things worse, not better.
Christmas, easter, valentines day, mothers day and fathers day do nothing but burn a whole in your savings account and make you realise how disfunctional your family really is.
Like, who really needs commercial holidays? If there's someone meaningful in your life (partner, mother, father, sister, brother etc etc etc) they should know you love and appreciate them every day of the year, not just on a stupid commerical holiday that makes them spend money on stupid gifts you don't need.
And you know, so what if me hating commerical holidays makes osme people think I'm evil. I'm not evil. I just think stupid made up commercial holidays are a waste of money. For fathers day, my stepdad said he wanted this book, so mum went out and bought it and gave it to me to give to him on fathers day, like, man, why bother. I appreciate mum's trying to keep the faimly together, but honestly, it just seems so silly to me, gifts on made up holidays. The only bonus of fathers day on the weekend was that I got to take some neat snapshots of Sandgate Beach.

Also, second but smaller rant for this blog - I'm totally over being called emo and/or goth by my family and co-workers. My friends know I'm not emo or goth but that's what I am to my family and co-workers. The token "emo/goth alternative" one. Like, wtf people. So what if I wear cons and band tshirts and have a nose piercing. This does not by any means make me goth or emo. Gosh darn retards with their warped views on things. If they think I'm emo and/or goth, they've got another thing coming.

The end.

HELLO AUGUST! GOODBYE AUGUST!

HELLO FAITHFUL BLOG READERS! (Though there are very few of you, so I'm not talking to many people here)

It's been almost a whole MONTH since my last blog.
And, what's worse, is this is my first August blog, and now August is almost over! BOO URNS.
Everyday kept going by and I wanted to blog, and had things I wanted to write about, but I'd always get distracted doing something else like work or uni or going out somewhere or doing something on the interwebs.

So, I'm blogging now. Cos I know if I don't know then I probably won't blog for another whole month, cos I'm like that sometimes.
I'll aim to write shorter blogs more often, promise.
My blogs are too epic and not often enough.

STUFF THAT'S HAPPENED RECENTLY:

- BANDS I'VE SEEN LIVE IN THE PAST 4 WEEKS: The Living End, Ellington, Steven Childs, Andrew Swift, Repeat Offender (twice), The Frets, The Gallant, A Year to Remember, Cobra Starship, The Acadamy Is, PANIC AT THE DISCO, An Horse and DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE. Go me. I rock at going to concerts.

- I've bought 2 goldfish - 1 goldfish 4 weeks ago, another 2 days ago. Their names are Norbert and Reginald. You can see them in that picture just there.

- I painted my second TSB. It's on the interwebs. Go here http://svc189.bne146v.server-web.com/artforce/ and type my name in the "Artist Name" search box and you'll see my art.

- I got a $60 parking ticket FROM THE CITY COUNCIL, whilst painting my TSB FOR THE CITY COUNCIL. Bastards.

- I went to the orthodontist, dyed my hair, re-arranged all the posters in my room and put up heaps of new ones and photos and tidied my room and stuff. I chucked in a picture of one of my walls. Yep.

- I BOUGHT TICKETS TO WICKED AND FLIGHTS TO MELBOURNE. SO EXCITED. FLYING TO MELBOURNE IN 22 DAYS.

- I finally got my guitar that I put on order in JUNE. It's gorgeous and lilac and perfect and I know 6 chords cos I've had barely any time to play it.

- The Hive asked me if I'd be interested in taking some photos for them at some upcoming gigs! Me, doing photography at The Hive! EXCITING!

- Work. Feels like I've been about a million times lately, when really it's only 3 or 4 times a week.

- I've done some babysitting. I'm starting to hate it more and more. And the more I see children the more I hate them. That's right. I hate children. What're you gonna do about it.

- I've been to Uni alot alot alot. It's pretty good mostly. Except for Communication Design, which I hate.

- So, I un-enrolled in Communication Design. Yep. Best decision ever. Now I'm only doing 3 subjects and it's great.

- I interviewed an RSPCA employee for one of my uni assignments. My voice sounds odd when I listen to the recording but I spose thats just what it sounds like to hear your own voice played back to you.

- I've made lots of sculptures in 3D media at Uni. I love that class.

- I've seen alot alot alot of my friends and caught up with alot of people and shopped and ate and done lots of fun things. For example, Jed's birthday party which was funnn... and not to mention Jack's going away dinner (why he wants to volunteer in a hospital in Uganda is beyond me...) I miss you Jack.

- Annnnnnnnnnnd cds I've bought: The Grates and Brittish India. And I got some free ones from The Hive. I would bought more but I'm poor. I have an epic list of all the cds I want. It only ever gets longer.

- And finally: My on going mission for Cons. I've been obsessed with converse shoes for a while, but my obsession has now driven my search for cons onto the internet. Coz I can never find ones I like that are my size and that I can afford in the local shops. I'm ebay-ing it up. Those cons I put the picture of at the top, that's the kind I want. Mid-calf height. But no, they don't have any in my size anywhere but America. God damnnnnnn.



STUFF THAT'S HAPPENING SOON:

- MELBOURNE IN 22 DAYS! LEX AND I AND OUR MUMS FLY TO MELBOURNE ON THE 18TH SEPTEMBERRRRR! WICKED IS ON THE 20TH OF SEPTEMBERRRR! SO SO SO SO EXCITED!
- Rachel's glam rock party which will be awesome, I love her and Jade's going and I'm gonna tease my hair. Yep. Tease my hair.
- The Sound of Music TOMORROW NIGHT! My mate's in it. Should be fun even if I should be doing uni assignments instead of going out (again).
- There's lots of upcoming gigs and festivals and whatnot
- I'm seeing my cousin for coffee next friday. I havn't seen her since.. I don't know. April or something crazy like that.
- Bad thing is that I have lots of uni assignments due.


OTHER THINGS I WANNA MENTION COS IT'S MY BLOG AND I CAN WRITE WHAT I WANT:

Rachel and I wore the same shirt today. The Kisschasy one with the rabbit on it. People stared at us at uni, coz we had class together for 4 hours and people thought we were crazy. We laughed.
She walked into the lecture and as soon as we saw each others shirts we burst out laughing.
Haha.
We rock.
We need a clothes schedule.

Thanks to Matt for the million bits of attention lately. And all the texts.
And for saying that I'm epicly awesome.

Little Sammy Bear who is now 15, hope you're feeling better mate. :)

ALEXIA. I love you and can't wait to go to Melbourne with you. That's all.

And I think that's it for now.
I'm done with my epic blog.
I think.

BYE FOR NOW EVERYONE <3

P.S I just went back and read my last blog I posted before this one.
I totally doubled up on a bunch of information and news and stuff that I've mentioned in this blog and in the one I posted in July.
Oh well.

You can disconnect my heart.

I've been reaching for the highest shelves, reading the oldest books
But I still don't feel intelligent and I'd smile if I could
You're the only face I'd ever miss, the one that makes me smile
I'm distraught about the way you left, in the city lovers die.
They assessed how much i love you and it's too much to give grade
The type of girl, if you where homeless you'd give all your change
And I'm done feeling sorry for myself
No I feel sorry for myself now you're gone
Oh I wish you weren't gone
You can disconnect my heart
Because I feel so far away from everything
Away from everyone
I can feel the weight of me decisions pinching at my spine
I've become my own worst enemy, this smiles hiding lies
And if I could I'd cramp the distance that's made our hearts grow weak
You're the only girl I'll always ever miss but never get to meet
And I can't breathe without you close
And I'm sick of all my clothes, I'm finding things a bit too much
Im finding things a bit too much
I wish you all the best
I'll miss you, you're the best
And I'm done feeling sorry for myself
No I feel sorry for myself now you're gone
Oh I wish you weren't gone
You can disconnect my heart
Because I feel so far away from anyone
Away from everyone
Girl the distance will come between us, don't you laugh

"Distance" - Ellington.
My fave song of theirs. Parts of the song kinda sum up how I feel at times.

I THINK TOO MUCH AND THIS BLOG IS FULL OF THINKING.
YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!

I've come to realise things always continue to be fairly the same in my life.
Not good, not bad, but just ok.

Whenever something good happens, something bad always happens to cancel the good thing out and then I'm just left somewhere in the middle which is just luke warm, confusing and frustrating.
Even though there are good things in my life, really good things, plenty of them, there's always the bad things aswell, and so I'm left feeling niether good or bad but just annoyed and blank.
I can be having a great day and then one after another, all these things go wrong which add up and leave me feeling terrible. It happens ALL the time.

Like, one small example, last week I spent a day painting a Traffic Signal Box for the Brisbane City Council (the picture is of my TSB - it's outside a primary school. It's not finished yet though). It's part of this community art project called Artforce and you do it for the Council for free and get to paint in a public place. Whilst I was doing this, I got a parking ticket, from none other than the Brisbane City Council. Like, it's so retarded. I was doing a painting for them for free and then they come and give me a parking ticket so now I have to give THEM money. Argh.


I've come to realise things are always continuing to be the same for me in my life. On and on. Day in, day out.
I feel like I'm walking in circles sometimes. I really do.
And I can't seem to break out of the mould that I was put in in high school. I'm not perfect or innocent or better than you or boring or condecending. I'm not ANY of these things and I'm really sick of people labelling me as all these things which I'm really not.

I want to escape out of this never ending cycle of things but I don't know how.
Things always seem to come and go in the same pattern for me, they really do.

Ugh. I can't even really explain what I mean.
I need to get out of my head and stop analysing everything over and over until I'm so sick of everything I feel like I could scream.

Sigh.

In other news -
- I'm back at uni this week for my second semester. Woo.
I did pretty well last semester and I'm proud of myself for doing well so I'm gonna try and keep it up. Fingers crossed. I'm actually really excited to start my 3D media classes tomorrow. We get to do art with wire and clay and wood and metal and other cool stuff like that. It's gonna be SO RAD. Only truly interesting subject i have this semester. Lol.
- I'm going to MELBOURNE IN SEPTEMBER! I'm seeing Wicked with Lex. Wicked is in 59 days. I'm so so so so so so so excited! I need to start saving up lol. And I need to book flights. My poor poor bank account.
- I got a new fish this afternoon! I thought I'd try my luck at a gold fish this time. I havn't named him yet but I feel proud coz I bought him a little air bubble thingy and everything. He seems really happy. Poor Marley, RIP buddy, I tried my best.
- Work is frustrating me. Almost every single customer these days bitches to me aobut the prices of things. I wouldn't go into ANY shop and bitch to the person who was surving me about their prices, so I don't see why people do it to me. And what's worse, we're one of the cheapest (if not the cheapest) vet clinics in the area, so like, wtf people?! AND I DO NOT FREAKING CONTROL THE PRICES OF SERVICES OR PRODUCTS IN OUR SHOP. I JUST SELL THE STUFF. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU RUDE PEOPLE. YOU'RE DRIVING ME INSANE.
- I'm totally over being single but I'm too shy to meet new people. I think I'm destined to be alone. I really do. And the boys I like never like me back anyway. Ugh.
- I bought hair dye the other day. "Intense deep burgundy" will be my new hair colour. Wooooo. I love having maroon hair. It makes me happy.

Other than all that things are as usual.
Bland.

I'm finished blogging I think.
For now at least.
I almost feel as if it doesn't really matter anyway coz barely anyone even reads my blogs.

Hello to Rach if you're reading this. I love you. You're my twin and you're great. I wish I could make you happy. <3

THE END.

MASSIVE BLOG OF MASSIVE FOR JULY.

OH MY GOSH IT'S BEEN A VERY LONG TIME SINCE I'VE LAST BLOGGED.










I feel bad for not blogging in so long, I've really wanted to but kept getting distracted with real life stuff like hanging with friends and concerts and going shopping and going to work and whatnot.
I'M ABOUT TO EXPLODE, I'VE GOT THAT MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT.
YOU BETTER BELIVE IT.
Buckle up, this is going to be a long ride...

So, since I last blogged, which was the week of the end of Uni semester one, I've been rather busy. (Get ready for a giant list of stuff... Mostly this is in list form BECAUSE I LIKE LISTS AND THIS IS MY BLOG SO SUCK IT. Yep.) GIANT LIST OF RECENT THINGS I'VE DONE IS AS FOLLOWS:

- I've been to the Sunny Coast with Jack and Katie. Katie and I watched Sex and the City, Gilmore Girls and also Scrubs for hourssss on end. Fantastic. And the three of us drank lots and ate lots and I baked cookies. It was great. Living with Jack and Katie and riding in Katie's car was great. I love Jack and Katie. I miss them. Damn them for living an hour away and damn me for being too lazy to see them more often.


- I've been to Bundaberg/Bargara and became a member of the Bundy Crew.
It was great. Lots of good times were had. Lots of food was eaten, lots of music was listened too, lots of photos were taken. And! I even DROVE home from Bundy! 5 hours of highway driving! It was insane! The group photo is us ont he side of the Bruce Highway on the way home. I'd wanted a group photo all trip and that was when we decided to take one, on the side of the highway, as you do. Lol. Jack had a flat tire and no one but Lex and I knew how to change tires so she and I did it while the remainder of the Bundy Crew stood and watched. Haha. So discraceful, 4 boys on the trip and no one knew how to change a tire. Haha!
- I've seen SOMETHING WITH NUMBERS live. With Jade. It was rad. The Zoo is our new favourite place.

- I went to The Grates' secret show.. which was rad because it turned out to be ON A BOAT. And I met and got photos with all three members of The Grates and generally had a radtacular time with my mates and met some new people too. One of the absolute best nights I've had in a lonnnnng time. So many awesome people and so so so much awesome music. I met Al's friend Matt from Syney. He's pretty rad as far as internet friends go :) AND I GOT TO SEE MY LONG LOST FRIEND KATEY! WOO! She won't read this but she's rad all the same. It was a great night, so rad to see The Grates live again and to hear their new songs! AND I WAS IN THE FRONT ROW, DEAD CENTRE, AND PATIENCE SUNG TO ME AND IT WAS WONDERFUL. And in Howl I got to be a wolf and howl into Patience's microphone. Coz I'm cool like that. AND! I bought their new single and when we left we got little Grats party bags which were super cute! :) A RADTACULAR NIGHT WAS HAD BY ALL. Thankyou to The Grates and Triple J for a fantastic night out. (The two photos above and below this are form the show.. There's one of Lex, Jade and myself looking out onto the river taken by the loverly Jackus, and one of Patience which I took) :)

- I've been to work a fair few times. It's pretty good most of the time. It's pretty normal.

- I've been shopping. It's very easy to spend money. Which is bad. BUT! I've now got alot of clothes and shoes and things. Wooo. I went shopping on sunday and got jeans, 3 tops, a cardigan type thing, a dress, some high heels and a skirt! WOO! MY WARDROBE IS NOW COMPLETE AND OVERFLOWING.

- Lex and I have been organising our trip to MELBOURNE in September to see WICKED! I'm so so so excited. I love Lex and Melbourne and I'm so excited to see Wicked. :D Wooo. Lex and I and our mums are all gonna go together. Coz we're that cool. It's gonna be wicked. Get it. Haha. I'm so lame.

- I've had sleepovers with mates. And gossip sessions. Yep. AND PICNIS! WE HAD A PICNIC THURSDAY! It was greeeeeeat :D

- I've drunk soymilk. Chocolate flavoured soymilk to be exact. Alison got me onto it years ago but I bought a whole litre of it the other day just coz I was in the mood for it. I'm drinkign the last of it riiiiiight now. Nom nom nom.

- I've eaten so much junk food that it's just not cool anymore. Lol. I want fruit and vegetables and nothing else. Haha.

- I've organised for me to paint another TSB (traffic signal box) like the one I did last year. This one's in Bald Hills near the primary school. I'm gonna paint it with pencils and stuff on it, I'll probs be doing it on monday/tuesday next week! Woo!

- I've listened to ALOT of music. SO SO SO MUCH NEW MUSIC. I bought the new Birds of Tokyo cd, amoung others. I love their new album so so so much. It's wonderous. Oh and I've watched a bit of tv.And listened to Jade on 99.7FM radio. She's great at being a radio presenter, destined for JJJ she is.

- I've been on some crazy road trips, one of which was rather epic and was last night. I've been trying not to use people's names in my blogs but whatever, it's too hard not to. I give up.

So this is how it goes - the adventure of last night: Ree rang Lex and I, offering to come and pick us up from Lexy's and take us to her parents' house for a parteee coz her arents were on holiday and therefore not home. Lex and I said yes. 8:30pm rolls round and Ree and Emma come and pick up Lex and I. The adventure begins here haha.
We drove from Bridgeman Downs to Warner to pick up Richelle. Then we drove to Scarborough to pick up Michael. At this point there was 6 of us in Ree's car, a 5 seater little Rav 4. Yep. Richelle, myself, Lex and Michael all smooshed in the back seat and one of us had to duck whenever we saw the cops drive by coz we didn't wanna get Ree in trouble for having more passangers than she had seats. Lol. Hilarious. So, we then drove to Ree's parents' place at Roxburg, which took about 40 mins from Michael's house. So we arrive at Ree's place, on top of her mountain at Roxburg, by which time it was about 10:30pm, and we're more than ready to have some drinks and about to jump out of Ree's car when BOM BOM BOM Ree's parents arn't on holiday! OH NO! They were home! We pulled up and there's not one, but TWO cars in the driveway, and Ree's parents are inside their house ASLEEP, and Ree had just rocked up to their place at 10:30pm on a thursday with a car load of people thinking that her rents were on holiday. Lol. So, after some awkwardness and Ree having a quick chat to her mum which was basicaly "What are you doing here with these people?! Go away." (understandable though aye) we left Ree's parent's place feeling kind of lost and disgruntled without anywhere decent to go. We ended up then driving from Roxburg to Narangba to drop Emma off, then back to Warner to drop Richelle home. Then it was Ree, Michael, Lex and I, still with no where to go and wanting to do something other than continue driving for the rest of the night. SO! We head from Warner to the city, to Ree's apartment and crash there the night. LOL. MOST EPIC AND USELESS DRIVING ADVENTURE EVER. So, Ree picked Lex and I up at 8:30pm and we didn't get to her place in the city until MIDNIGHT. Lol. Along the way we drove to a million places, nearly got pulled over by the cops for having too many passangers, speeding, and having loud music, and we almost ran over about 3 rabbits and a cat. Not to mention us back seat riders all ended up with sore spines from being smooshed in the back seat for like an hour and a half, BUT, overall, it wasn't that bad a night, and hey, it makes a good story. Lol.
SO THAT WAS MY EPIC STORY OF OUR EPIC ROAD TRIP FROM LAST NIGHT. WOOO.

People are amusing. I've been thinking about these sorts of things of late. Like taking a step back and thinking about the ways in which other people are. If that makes sense.
The more people I meet the moe I like my dogs lol. It's so true. There's so many rude people I've come across lately.
Some people just don't give up when they want something. Haha. It makes me laugh.
Some people are rude. Like some of the angry customers at work.
Some people are really, really hypocrytical. I hate it.
And some people are just damn confusing.
Yep. I'll stop analysing things now.

So yeah.
That was epic.
I'm all blogged out now.
Many more concerts and social gatherings coming up, and I'm back at Uni for another adventurous semester as of July 21st. Woo.

BYE FOR NOW FAITHFUL READERS!

OH! ALSO! Happy birthday to Sammy Bear. He's now the ripe old age of 15. Sorry I didn't have a new blog written for you on your birthday mate. Oh well. Happy birthday all the same. Hope it was a good one even if I refused to supply you with alcohol. Haha.

AND! HAYDEN! IF YOU ARE READING THIS YOU SUCK. Sif you'd read your older sister's blog. Honestly. LIKE WHY WOULD YOU WANNA READ THIS HAYDEN? Pfffft.
Happy birthday for sunday though. You're also turning 15. Woo.

OK I AM NOT WRITING ANYTHING ELSE NOW.
This blog is epic. Over 1600 words.
I'm rad-to-the-core. I wish more people read this.
Anywho, I'm going now.
BAI!